Become The Sun

Become the sun!” say tall man gets glasses stand up with spidol's tip oscillation is before around 30 childs at their place hall bails knowledge. With expression kind of that is man oft that can confiscate attention some eye tide at its front

“Momentary looking at students while mornings. The sun although place far it is able to adorn earth with its light. Change from dark becomes brightness. With its light that is it needed by life.” its revealing again.
It afterwards point out solar image stands up with 9 its peripatetic planets then say,”The sun also constitute center of our solar system. Is not student don't want become the sun?"
“We want Ustadz!” scream them coincide.
After know all santri's answer cute that, ustadz opens science schoolbook about solar then making for blackboard set down something then words it, awhile drawn out previous day study.
All santri notices, but Beno. it moves around, seems to be available something that wants to be asked. Its face scratch, its body is silent but its spiritual goes on turbulent want to lift hand as sign as attention asking, but don't brave. the skinny it suspects to ask is one silly conduct, insufficiently mature and childish.
“I really want become The Sun, but what I can? How can man become the sun?” its revealing at heart.

***

After tutorial it straggly All santri's issue brazes, afters's face is tutorial that science really time it rest. Their troop make towards kindred place with pendopo grand was intermediated by school. They enter juxtaposed canteen orderly run around hall. Really that hall is available special for food grocer, beginning from burger until soto ayam, soft drink and jajanan any other.
But it doesn't tempt Beno It more most draw for studying at bibliographic or plays with its own think. In short order that little child take down its shoe then be placed at available rack. With stage is it hurriedly sees literature is before.
“Which yes bind books about the sun ” its revealing slow.
Until eventual it sees to draw planet structure with star its main which is the sun. Its lip is smiling while takes length breath. “This she is!!!”. Shortly its hand pull that book, then takes in it to one of correct empty table at its front.
“This so the sun, consisting of gas bulk that its heat more than 100.000 celcius's degrees and its distance restrains from my place earth read this,” its revealing is slow while shakes head it.
Its attention is full, until it doesn't care for vicinity environment. Even more while false its counsellor a comes to accost.
“Assalamualaikum Beno, again reads what this noon?” that greeting not makes Beno to cast eyes on.
But, although perceiving be not been noticed teachers not gives up. The slow twine body and glues its face to aim Beno.
“I again see the sun as ustadz Sulaiman's word, severely I want to become the sun,” with heard voice hamper as grumbles it is new Ustadz perceives to get response. That able man nod sign understands.
“Okey, but don't forget rest. Your friend want you play with them,” its fomentation that just is commented silently.
“I make a abode to want become the sun,” its sharp while shaking head.

***

But with its respect on ustadz, Beno comes out from library for plays with friends. Severally from them are at football field that drew the line by barbed wire to block issue ball until punch someone or its peripatetic hall. Their total a lot of and the whole lot looked really gain control the that domed skin be done splits. As once kicks slow to go to friend play then runs taut to the fore. They really want become footballer who can pride Indonesian's people.
One enjoy's other part with notebook to look for information after school assignment which shall be finished today. There is too which having game fun to release fatigue that be faced up to 6 hours at classroom.
Beno discards to show face from boy friend activities its that. It stands up long time, cast eyes on to left and to right, then slow walking to aim Nita's crowd stands up with girl that be plays by boon laugh. It draws near Nita then reaches for hand with its right hand. obviously santri that daughter cries out. “Groan, surprise me! What is sih which wanted by Beno,” scream that girl, but queer! why is its view doesn't be presented at Beno? but goes to false a friend be hovered, Shieva.
"I don't know it is advisable we just accord,” say bicara Nita's foe fun, no dander auspices at its face, don't berate, seems to be it tolerate conduct the Beno.
Beno pulls that little girl to aim its friend an again and reaches for hand with its left hand. Virgin understands Beno's intention, it asks for its friend for doing the same thing until finally gets circle form. Then Beno says “ let we so the sun,”
“What!!! So the sun! How to?” Ask that girl.
Without answers Beno runs slow follow circle aim already be made it, so that circle movement pivot takes after wheels. Originally slow then getting quick and getting quick. Until eventual whorled it then dispersed and a portion keel aside. But their laugh stills heard, smile's still.
“Ayo forms be,” say Nita.
Its friend is terminological. They form be circle as originally then pivot again but slow, while singing;
“The sun scintillates, the sun scintillates, light my earth, light my house,” they said scores of times, stand up with fun face that adorned by laugh's loud.
Every thing changed at Beno's vicinity, initially its environmental plays jaded hueless, but since “ so ” their the sun more chromatic. Initially abrupt empty as rumbustious stuffed with excitement.
Beno smiles sometimes heard its little laugh. Although sweat damps its scrawny body, its face is sunny, it has found something.
“I have become the sun, solar one irradiates to earth by love unhappily. I have become the sun!”.

***

but, In school Beno is not let by male child interacts with female. They came to pieces by room. Therefore false an ustadzah rebukes Beno that it plays with other boys.
That mirth a matter of inches gets lost, Pursuant Benopun. Then runs to aim place ball field boy most plays. But it indifferent. No one male even that casts eyes on evenless ask out it plays ball. Is it sad? Ah apparently doesn't. Even constant smile adorn its face.
Shortly it takes down vest that becomes part of uniform and place stock bag that do ever at cangklongan it left shoulder, then flinging out his hand second until as high as shoulder then runs to penetrate child crowd that be plays ball. Its style curves to right and to left, sometime straight to the fore. But it often revolves run around ordinary field mean is utilized for kickoff deep game serves a ball.
Torn, game disbands. For a while they get stuck to see unusual Beno whim. But, are not an even brave chewing out and besides drive out it. That child crowd only can open mouthed follow Beno's movement.
“Beno if wants to play ball at team I just, fortunately we are subtracted person,” scream Seto Beno's classmate tries to offer something.
“Don't!!! let him, moreover rest hour also wants to disband. We keep up to even wait for afters go home school,” say Toyo Seto's playmate. “What was crazy this child, who is her sih?” lanjutnya while cross is index finger second at its forehead, their eye right along keep company Beno's gesture that be enjoy's plays its body at the site ball.
“he's Beno, its classmate sometime faddy,” clear Seta welcomed by friend laughter looked around by it.
Beno don't care, right along it flies at raya's space. Manifest as bird of prey looks for to eat at earth. Get bend, as once scorn body then runs back straightening. Sometime stops momentary cast eyes on to right and to left then run afters back get confidence for can walk back.
There is an of membered crowd tries to tempt with follow Beno's movement that welcomed by applause and rumbustious laugh to be looked around it.
“come on beno! around the world,” mock laughter welcomes that child friend that gazes it.
But that jeer not makes Beno stop. It is certain aught person behind it this wants to play with it. It also wants become the sun seems to be.
“Are not, are not. We this not aircraft, we this not it want around the world. Me and you this solar. One that irradiate earth with light life, friendly light,” clear Beno corrects role that being played by
At that very moment just that boy chortle until its tear comes out, then falls to roll more can't bate its laugh.
“Kith! it wants to become the sun, it wants to become the sun,” scream it stands up with its hard laugh.
Beno stops, it is new understands that real friend not wants to play with it, even they just kid its wish, its wish that have just it gets from class room.
“I want to become The Sun.”

***

“Sunny observable sky while solar beginning averse slightly give its light. Heard at too far iron voice that most whangs sign to escape its schooled accountability as counsellor of child – child, they shall meet back with its oldster.
In front mosque, one area which is utilized to pick up school child was observable motor vehicle line within reason jajaran on the lift soldier martial. Student oldster, driver, and pedicab worker wait child – schooled secretory their child within reason river flow looking for lowland, swift once. Sometimes laugh, smile and ground caress adorn that mosque front page.
But descries a child which get in – arriving only climb mango tree that lies beside unfearing mosque. it continually increases onto until it is at treetop. at that moment is wont is beautiful pick up service that most teases, most hunts – hunt them to draw near that queer child.
“eh! That Beno's right” incorrect revealing a between they.
“Beno, come on goes down boy, dangerously above treed! Later you fall. let's go down boy, come on!” that clamor is heard alternate, disturb apparently but schooled discipline enforcer be not brave for its chewing out on the contrary they come on to scream. Although don't until their hand right along swing – swinging as want to reach for Beno that lies a little ways from their reach.
That child so confident once by its conduct. No fear be winked, and its face shone by force penting to slop wants issue. It was impatient, while shakes head it it sees to down, as solar as.
“What is on this? you all flock shuttlecock in here, do you don't want to go home to house. Herein let I what do irradiate to universalize.” Its sharp is monotonic, no emotion at in it, but its obsession is clear.
Upon that treetop is observable its balance begins wobbly while scores of times it tries for rentangkan to put hand out as high as shoulder. Scores of times jua it makes mouth that gazes it not stops to cry out and screams and eye not they bate to gaze Beno again with its handed mantle.  
Fairly only, mounted tree by Beno it in height 2 meters and that child is at one of branch which the most high. If this queer child fall, accordingly can serious, otherwise dies abasia yes, lightest complete fracture. And they can feel it breakneck for child – child, particularly their own child.
A little while that scene happens a corporeal rounded hirsute crisp try to climb, but body weight it that is that blocks to step out continually onto. Softly it crawls until lie 0.25 m from Beno. Beno casts eyes on then release its hand to be reached for that tubby man. That man refuses.
“come on Beno! goes down. Why are you get slip up with this persons? What do you build?” Say that Man. Lingual structure that unusually but often been utilized for person second this, so its meaning just them who know. It is appointed Beno uncle for pick up service.
“Oom bayu, your know is present solar was shining being adjured it?”
“Are not, is not solar was drowned,” answer that Man while gets is contained meaning turned back by Beno's conduct.
“Aah Oom bayu won't understand as other boys. They want to contempt my dream, they have kidded my dream. And here I'm, I want to prove on you that I can become the sun.” Beno's grumble while point at its index finger to down.
That rounded man beginning understands, with out of breath and sweat that don't stop flow it tries to reach for one at a time stick and tree crack that can make support to climb and notices behavior Beno if that child has done that do not good.
“That oh, are down before. That looking at at western sometime the sun also needs rest. Appear you where present the sun? is Not right?” ask out bayu, really that scorpion is solar was beginning show its tire until emits redding color at sky.
Childs gazes to westwards, then it momentary abstracteded seems to be it realises something. Pronto it also floodlights its changed face, its eyeball is fastmoving to left and to right, its body is vibrant great, then as soon as lightning nestles to adjure it hand in glove.
“Please oom! Please om! Aah I fear, I fear to fall! Fast groan!” scream Beno suddenly.
In a flash really woolly its clamor meaning, since was well-nigh 1 its hour was standing at highest tree trunk, Beno's face new is aware where she lies.
his Oom has realised it. But audiences not, they a loss to understand Beno. there is that panic calls fire company and there is too scream, but rasional's more one is Suaibah, ustadzah already drive out Beno of its the sun game with Nita, Sheiva with its friend. It lifts ladder with security help of school barn to pick up Beno and his Oom.
“Don't panic OK? Help must come, tuh sees you have caused all school on fuss all,” tips Oom to ice atmosphere. Customarily Beno terminologicals, its body one will ice.
While is ladder have is at hadapan both of cousin and oom it, they directly go down it slow and on the ball. Until under Beno direct gets to kiss and hugs from mother and audience mother that attending over there. That time sob cries to be heard, congratulation most utters.
Then that tubby man approaches Beno slow then strokes cousin head tender it, while says, “Solar it always make this the world fun, don't wreck it, that is in essentials how becomes The Sun.”

***

Scorpion solaring to mark early been begun life, Beno gets canter while accosting by piece friend, kissing passing ustadz hand and primal one is its smile. Really that is its excess. No emotion which make it menggelegar angers and that makes it broad razzing. Adequately smiles observable little at its lip.
“Assalamu alaikum, Nita, assalamualaikum every one,” its accosts soft stand up with nan's little hand wave is beautiful as power leaves while blustery diterpa while storm falls calm
“Wa alaikum is greeting,” shout Nita and Beno's female friend concomitant reply over Beno greeting in front of him.
No that as beautiful as smile and greeting divides. “I want to become the sun.”

FOR MY COUSIN IWAN'S THE LOVED ONE AND AUTIS'S PATIENT CHILDREN.
“GO ON AS THE SUN ”

Zodiack

Oleh: Ernanto Bayu Pamungkas
Writer is Unair's college student


Zodiac. Can become one configurational character reflection someone. On it, we hope luck for moon, Sunday, or today. About career and financially. Evenless in the event romance, couple,or in the event choose life couple would be convenient.
“Ah, what it is meant such a presage. One that trip our own cannikin life,”Tommy's hum each see last page one adolescent magazine.
“But, forecast that our personality reflection Tom. If I see,your deportment is set with written one at this magazine,” say Wendi,Tommy's viscous best friend.
“Have Wen, baffled or successful, well or its bad that man is seen from the way a posed and its effort. Are not of forecast.”
“Even believe. Its prove several times cause making love baffled it is not see you monthly guidance. amatory to Reni is refused, derived same Jeni it is not clear, trus not disconnect long time with Oil Lamp,huh! On and off believe with me.”
“Okay. This time how my fate?” ask Tommy ala is forced.
“Eh, as same as that yesterday. This moon you are forthcoming rejected with girl, there are many problem, and bankrupt,” easy answer Wendy.
“that is cannikin, what are i am every. Not available it is better,” Tommy's grumble, each presage is not based on on it.
“One that patient yes. Who knows your fortunate proximo,” say Wendy cogent. Last month, Wendy also says, “one that patient.”Sometimes, “You shall there are many pray and try.” That sentence make displeased Tommy and more acute again decides to incredulous on presage.
***
Since that instance, Tommy's gaze goes on to gawp. Inwardly wants not trust presage that read by Wendy that time.
“Fucking, Wendy is languid cause lives.”
“What is on Tom, monologue shuttlecock,” say Indra while walks with research road with Tommy. Although distance among their body is far from, word constanting to band they.
“Not what whats shuttlecock Miss. Not understands. Each road with you, my heart beat become not known,” answer Tommy after tug body because suddenly voice comes in in its consciousness.
“Ah, run of the mill. You must be there is problem. Even story, who knows I can help.”
Coincide with Indra's question, buzz orders Wendy in Tommy's marrow, “Remember, try fortune nonalignment on you. Evenless with Aquarius girl.” “Uh, you again,” say Tommy slow.
“Romance shuttlecock again Tom, there is promise with girl? Whew so troubles yes.”
“Not Miss shuttlecock, severely. Which there is girl which wants with me. Eh, you want not,” Tommy's plague. Fad, who knows its derived aspiration with Indra can materialize.
“Cook girl that talk before,”snare that assembling to result result. Whew, be clear it fresh wind for Tommy. Sprout at loves arriving
Tommy adds to be certain untrue's presage and zodiacal nature asthma breasts. “huh, will I prove on you Wendy. This moon is my best moon.”
“Eh Tom, I starve. Eating before at Ujang's booth,” ask out Indra while gets to hold its belly that continually issues sound. Tommy accepts. She also haven't given worm life in its belly.
***
“Jang, pecel lele with sambel's rice one,” scream Tommy.
“patient. Again a lot of person. Drink before. 10 minutes again,” Ujang shout to reply Tommy's clamor.
New Tommy aware. She fumbles its pants and shortly check its purse with stealth. Apparently he is bankrupt. “Groan, how this. Can tonight riot,” say Tommy at heart. She shortly draw near Ujang and under one's breath, “Jang, debt may be not.” Benefit Tommy is number subscription 1. If not, as sec as then its profession becomes saucer washer.
“Boss okay. I know. Reason it must date two cannikins?” shout Ujang.“Iya Jang, proximo I must pay,” reply Tommy.
Without right left see and prospective its girlfriend, it replies annoyance on alimentary one was dished By Ujang. Its face tingles, its body is full sweat and stoned Tommy couple winks to gaze sharp toward it.
“You there is problem Tom?” ask Indra attention.“nothing the matter. Run of the mill again. New know my eating trick,” answer Tommy.“He he he, its food have I pay. I who ask out to eat.”
Alamak! Tommy is confusion. “Want whereabouts been put this my face. Fucking. it knows also if I am bankrupt,” say Tommy at heart.
“Honestly only. I become not delicate,” ask Indra angered. Tommy enforced opens voice.
“You always descry lovely and noise about me all this time. Attention that you gives on me not maybe gave by others. I am carried away.” Tommy drawns out.“Was enough I bate to perceive it. I am your darling Ndra,” that utterance is well-nigh makes capacious Tommy. But she is still wait answer who must.
Momentary hush atmosphere. The girl is flinched and is at a loss want to answer what.
“Wendy is lovely,” finally Indra finds opener sentence, but with indented face.
“I take for she your girl. You really fervent. I become envy. Why are you not can so hover with me? I also want … But, now I not That Tom can. I … me … me was derived,” Indra's revealing is contrite.
Tommy is made thinks. “This puzzle have most answering. Apparently, are not zodiacal one become problem. Wendy is my love mischance. She over hovers. Accordingly, girls on blurry. Huh!”
***
A one month then
“Hey Tom, this moon you are being blest. Your star is be scintillates, successful romance, windfall, and a lot of activity,” say Wendy is ardour.“hmm, what are i am every. Just wait this moon, must you are successful.”
“There is available only. Have I tell don't believe presage thing. later forthcoming downs on narrow bones,”time new this Tommy's zodiacal presage well. Even not that presage result believe, its lip exists smile.
“Eh, want to know Indra's news?” Wendy ask to tempt.”Have. What do withdraw from she now?” "Obviously there is interesting. She is new downed same its boyfriend. downcast? If you amatorying to she this moon,” say Wendy cogent.
“Not my couple time, he he he.”
Wendy's that time sits down with Tommy. Leaning at its fervent shoulder. With soft nestle, Wendy utters utilised love word appease dejected Tommy heart because pine. “I love you Tom.” ***


www.jawapos.co.id
Selasa, 30 Agt 2005